the garden

by Ibrahim Nadeem

the garden

our necks fold over red,

lizard-like

squinting at the sun,

the blades of our squeezed shoulders 

fat and taut and high,

thoughtful strung arrows

buried into each other 

like kids sharing secrets. 

we tend to the dying baby’s breath, 

snip between the tight fisted white wisps,

snake out the wet mildew with a finger 

as guilty as a Sunday is long.

rot makes home like a home furnishes rot,

rot chameleon 

against the wet mildew walls the painter left before quarantine, inside 

rot chameleon rot chameleon 

in the whites of our hair and the quiet ellipses and 

the silent furrowed red raven way mom’s eyes look at me when i say today isn’t a good day.

the burnt wedding portrait we still hang up in all its brassy soot covered four foot tall glory, 

the young man that looks like me and,

the silent gaze,

the audience, the empty exterior,

the little studio props in it probably furnishing little houses with little families across sindh.

the rot is chameleon.

mom’s tea goes cold on the ceramic porch and a single thin winged fly sprawls its limbs out wide

sinewy like a petal, 

inside it summertime,

olympic pool of chai. 

carcass. 

my eyes shot blind by the blunt staring sun,

everything peach cast 

the grating crow 

the three people i call home and their shadows, long

everyone two toned for two blinding minutes,

with muddied fingers hanging low 

like unholstered guns

swinging 

making halos in the air,

the wisteria sings around them so tall 

we garden in the pandemic 

we fish out the rot

the rot

the rot.

photograph by Miraal Habib

Fatima Jafar